I am real. And every experience I describe on this site is real… or at least as real as I can remember it (which isn't so good in some cases, but I'm doing my best).
I am writing here first of all as an attempt at self-therapy, which begins by trying to figure myself out. As noted on the home page, how did I get in this mess? And then how can I get myself out? I really hope that this site might help someone else who's in a similar struggle, of course, but that's not how it started. Some of the stories you'll find here might sound very foreign to you… but just maybe some might be meaningful to you as well.
I am Alan… and let's just leave it at that. I'd really like to remain anonymous. If people leave the rest of my identity secret, I'll be really open about all sorts of things that I wouldn't talk about publicly. And if you're one of the handful of people I tell about this site off-line, please regard this as an especially sacred trust and don't divulge my identity to anyone. Share the site with everyone you think it might help, but please do not tell them or even hint to them who is actually writing it.
I don't yet have comments enabled on the blog, but I'll do that as soon as I figure out how to do comments that are anonymous. If I remain anonymous, you should be able to do so as well if you like. And I'm sure it'll be easy to do; I just haven't looked into it yet.
